Chorus rehearsal tonight

[vaneramos]

I'm not in the mood. I've been editing all afternoon. Half of these old essays are blah. Half-baked ideas I haven't thought about in two years. I keep reminding myself writing is like that. We keep evolving. I have to put up with my former ignorance and inadequacies or I'll never get anything published. The divine dissatisfaction of the creator. Maybe It really did create the earth and then decide to flood it and start stoning people he didn't like. I would like to burn some of these essays. Heh. No wonder those poor dark-minded old Bible writers imagined divinity that way.

Stuff about chorus. I could go on and on. We had conflict and drama in last Wednesday's rehearsal. Nothing to do with me, but I wanted to walk out. I can't handle watching people hate each other. I catch the ugly glare off of them. I've decided not to continue managing the web site. Last year it was too demoralizing. There are better people to work with this year, but I'm tired of it. Anyway, there is a lot of burdensome, muddy, clingy crap related to the chorus that I can only begin to think about.

I just want to go and enjoy singing and not think about any of this.

Okay, a few good things about the Rainbow Chorus:

1. Sylvie


2. Jon


3. Ray


4. Jon + Ray = sweet


5. several beautiful songs: Bulalow, A la nanita nana


6. singing beside Ray, great bass voice

Okay I have to go brush my teeth, but I feel better now.