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My new groove
Jun. 21st, 2003 09:53 pmThree days so far. Three hours a day writing in my notebook.
One finished poem. Beginnings of essays. Pages of notes exploring my memories, fateful memories, of the ex-gay movement. Another finished poem.
A short story! My first completed short story in how long? 18 months?
Exploring new ideas. Beauty overlapping pain. Beginning to write parts of my life that would be easier to forget. But remembrance feels stronger.
I have found a groove. Thank you,![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
drood. There are no tantrums this time. It is right because the past three days when I got out of bed I felt calm. I haven't felt this content in weeks.
I took today off, I don't know why. I wanted to do something weekendish. But Jon is working both days. Duncan is in Vancouver. Sylvie is sick in bed. Mark and Bob are staining their new deck. I want to go out, but not alone. I'm bored.
I almost hopped the bus for Toronto this afternoon. But better to save my little spending money for Toronto Pride next weekend. I'm staying home.
Tomorrow is Sunday. I'll write anyway.
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Dinner last night was one of my new favourite recipes, Beef Bourguignon. But lacking red Burgundy wine I substituted red Vermouth. So I guess it isn't Bourguignon at all but it's very flavourful. Served over a bed of new potatoes with garden salad.
Tonight: orange basil fish, squash and asparagus.
Yesterday I bought a two-pound bottle of Prostar Whey Protein to add to my breakfast shakes before or after workouts. Bruce drives me to the gym, usually on Tuesdays, Wednesday and Thursdays. He's not available weekends. It's a weird schedule, but I'm satisfied. After just three weeks I can feel and see my upper body muscles toning up. I haven't lost any weight. I'm not far off lifting the same weights as I was in October before the surgery.
If the weather is nice tomorrow morning maybe I'll walk to the gym. It's 45 minutes, mostly along the river.
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The site where I was uploading photos to post here won't work for me anymore. I checked with my ISP, and they say space for files is "Coming Soon!" Meanwhile I'll have to post photos on my geocities pages and send you there. But I don't have the patience to redesign those just now. So the images in this journal will be sparse for now.
One finished poem. Beginnings of essays. Pages of notes exploring my memories, fateful memories, of the ex-gay movement. Another finished poem.
A short story! My first completed short story in how long? 18 months?
Exploring new ideas. Beauty overlapping pain. Beginning to write parts of my life that would be easier to forget. But remembrance feels stronger.
I have found a groove. Thank you,
drood. There are no tantrums this time. It is right because the past three days when I got out of bed I felt calm. I haven't felt this content in weeks.I took today off, I don't know why. I wanted to do something weekendish. But Jon is working both days. Duncan is in Vancouver. Sylvie is sick in bed. Mark and Bob are staining their new deck. I want to go out, but not alone. I'm bored.
I almost hopped the bus for Toronto this afternoon. But better to save my little spending money for Toronto Pride next weekend. I'm staying home.
Tomorrow is Sunday. I'll write anyway.
~~~~
Dinner last night was one of my new favourite recipes, Beef Bourguignon. But lacking red Burgundy wine I substituted red Vermouth. So I guess it isn't Bourguignon at all but it's very flavourful. Served over a bed of new potatoes with garden salad.
Tonight: orange basil fish, squash and asparagus.
Yesterday I bought a two-pound bottle of Prostar Whey Protein to add to my breakfast shakes before or after workouts. Bruce drives me to the gym, usually on Tuesdays, Wednesday and Thursdays. He's not available weekends. It's a weird schedule, but I'm satisfied. After just three weeks I can feel and see my upper body muscles toning up. I haven't lost any weight. I'm not far off lifting the same weights as I was in October before the surgery.
If the weather is nice tomorrow morning maybe I'll walk to the gym. It's 45 minutes, mostly along the river.
~~~~
The site where I was uploading photos to post here won't work for me anymore. I checked with my ISP, and they say space for files is "Coming Soon!" Meanwhile I'll have to post photos on my geocities pages and send you there. But I don't have the patience to redesign those just now. So the images in this journal will be sparse for now.
