Rough start

Does anyone know when you're supposed to stop using lights to treat Seasonal Affective Disorder? My therapist suggested it's about now, so I stopped on Saturday, but I don't know. It's still kind of dark when I get out of bed.

These few days it has been painful to haul myself through the motions of my morning routine. Well, they're more than motions, because knitting and writing require creativity. Creativity can be rewarding, a source of comfort and healing, but this morning my body felt so out of joint, my willpower so fragile, I just wanted to go back to bed. I did not do so.

By the time I get dressed and out the door for work, I usually feel okay. But these two hours in the morning are normally the highlight of the day, and now they just feel rotten.