One man guy

[vaneramos]

Sylvie raved to me one day about Rufus Wainwright, not realizing I was already a fan. She put his second album, Poses, in her CD player. When I read the lyrics for "One Man Guy", I knew I had to have it.

No other song expresses so precisely how I feel about being an introvert. In fact I've never heard anyone else talk about "being your own one and only", as I have. It's neither sort of sick nor a dirty selfish trick. Patience, forgiveness and kindness start with self. If you learn to enjoy your own company, you'll inevitably like people better. This must become my theme song.

But my favourite song on the album is "Cigarettes and Chocolate Milk", about bad habits.

This week keeps dragging on. Rehearsal last night temporarily lifted me. So did a walk this afternoon with John and Mina, and grocery shopping with Sylvie. But I keep lapsing back into low-grade depression. I can't seem to get anything done, in fact I've hardly accomplished anything creatively since setting up the new website a few weeks ago. The apartment slowly erodes around me. In fact, solitude is functioning poorly now, and that's where everything begins.








Excerpts from the lyrics:


People depend on family and friends
And other folks to pull them through.
I don't know why I'm a one man guy
Or why I'm a one man show
But these three cubic feet
Of bone and blood and meat
Are all I love and know
'Cause I'm a one man guy in the morning
Same in the afternoon
One man guy when the sun goes down
I whistle me a one man tune.

~

If I should buy jellybeans
Have to eat them all in just one sitting.
Everything it seems I like's a little bit sweeter,
A little bit fatter, a little bit harmful for me.
And then there's those other things
Which for several reasons we won't mention.
Everything about ‘em is a little bit stranger,
A little bit harder, a little bit deadly