Countless love

[vaneramos]

Driving into more and more distances, the long, winding highway glitters under passing chariots. It leads to countless doors: blue ones on quiet streets, red ones on stone houses, a thousand sidewalks approaching the park with a fragrant rose at every corner.

At any opportunity one of these drivers could stop paying attention. When I felt the smack of another car hitting, my neck whipped backwards, those milliseconds turned infinite. All illusions evaporated and left me alone in the instant of love. You never know where your path will cross the line and collide with infinity. When last thoughts stretch on the event horizon to the moment of forever, I hope I'll be thinking of you. I would like to walk in the garden, feel and see the dew in your flowers, watch cool shade move endlessly through your eyes.

So take these words and remember me by them. Even when I am gone, don't leave me standing here. Tell everyone I was still here now. Surrounding air stings with my presence. Sinews of space-time stretch to accommodate restless curiosity.

Life is only a cancer in the steadfast uniformity of matter, a few molecules gone haywire. Mind is a strange wiring, electrical potentials, impulses flickering over dark surfaces. We feel so fragile, but no matter how many times you poison the malignancy, it returns in another form.

I started talking about countless love, now here I contemplate death (sometimes a lover feels like an 18-wheeler careening out of control in my direction). Love itself is an idolatry of creation, our chemicals and synapses playing the ultimate ritual performance. You can let it flash constantly, or die and cool like a planet at the end of the universe. For now I am awake, with mind unceasing.

Comments

[ubermunkey.livejournal.com]

wow
great stuff
be well
Van

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Thank you. In the groove this morning. :-)

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Connor, hit me and shatter me.
Love,
Van

[halation.livejournal.com]

you
are so beautiful

[justapostcard.livejournal.com]

Beautiful writing -- I love this.

I was going to quote my favorite lines, but there are too many of them!

["All illusions evaporated and left me alone in the instant of love. You never know where your path will cross the line and collide with infinity. When last thoughts stretch on the event horizon to the moment of forever, I hope I'll be thinking of you."]

& this

["So take these words and remember me by them. Even when I am gone, don't leave me standing here. Tell everyone I was still here now."]

yes, those are my Most Favorite!

[ink-ling.livejournal.com]

This spirit -- given so knowingly, intimately, beautifully in image and word -- is thankfully, evidently, contagious. Thank you, Van.

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

your words beautify me. :-)

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Thank you. This morning was one of potent writing, evolving out of several weeks of potent feeling. It's as close as I've come so far to a personal credo.

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Thank you, Jason. I thought about your comment yesterday, and hoped you would like this.

[ubermunkey.livejournal.com]

All illusions evaporated and left me alone in the instant of love.

I really enjoyed this line
this isn't the first time you've given me shivers
nor do I believe that it'll be the last

So many instants of love to remember, and to look forward to.

connor

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

to watch cool shade move endlessly through your eyes

[clairenolen.livejournal.com]

i like your writing a lot!
:-)

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Thanks very much.