My body's drama queen
Sep. 25th, 2003 04:12 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
vaneramosI felt depressed this morning, the worst in months. These mornings scare me to pieces. After bumming around for a couple hours, I shovelled myself out the door for a walk. The sky was sharp and bright as needles, making me weepy.
The sun, river and woods eventually cheered me up, but arriving home I still felt listless.
An hour ago I sneezed. Then I sneezed again, and felt a telltale prickle in the back of my throat.
So that bad mood this morning was just my delicate nervous system raising the usual red flag that something was wrong.
In the past my brain has gone off the deep end over some serious shit. I spent many years barely coping, so I'm relieved when the problem has a simple explanation. I know the feeling won't drag on for a couple weeks, or through the end of November. The past couple years have been mostly good, and I'm growing in confidence that the lessons I've learned about self-care are paying off.
A cold I can handle. I need a new bottle of Advil.
The sun, river and woods eventually cheered me up, but arriving home I still felt listless.
An hour ago I sneezed. Then I sneezed again, and felt a telltale prickle in the back of my throat.
So that bad mood this morning was just my delicate nervous system raising the usual red flag that something was wrong.
In the past my brain has gone off the deep end over some serious shit. I spent many years barely coping, so I'm relieved when the problem has a simple explanation. I know the feeling won't drag on for a couple weeks, or through the end of November. The past couple years have been mostly good, and I'm growing in confidence that the lessons I've learned about self-care are paying off.
A cold I can handle. I need a new bottle of Advil.
