Christmas 2003
Dec. 25th, 2003 10:27 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
vaneramosHere I am on Christmas morning doing the same thing as ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
lfkbear. I'm not alone, but Brenna is busy making little critters out of a bundle of new pipe cleaners, and Marian is already well into The Sword of Shannara, so I'm sitting at my computer. My worst fear was that Christmas would be just like every other day, but now that the reality has arrived, it isn't a bad thing.
I was lonelier as a teenager than I am now. Christmastime would usually bring home my older brothers with their wives, relieving the stress and boredom of being alone with my parents. I expected Christmas to be happier than other times, and usually it was.
Unfortunately I don't have any contact with my brothers now, but that isn't the point. What matters is that I'm generally happier now than I have been for most of my life. I have had some depression the past couple of months, but the big picture looks okay.
My daughters are good company and so is myself most of the time. It would be nice to have friends drop by for hors d'ouevres, but maybe that will happen tomorrow or the next day. It would be nice to sit and have a quiet coffee on the couch withdjjo, but I remember how happy he was about seeing his parents and sister for the first time in 18 months, so I can wait four days. I am content.
It's time I went for a comfortable, hot shower.
lfkbear. I'm not alone, but Brenna is busy making little critters out of a bundle of new pipe cleaners, and Marian is already well into The Sword of Shannara, so I'm sitting at my computer. My worst fear was that Christmas would be just like every other day, but now that the reality has arrived, it isn't a bad thing.I was lonelier as a teenager than I am now. Christmastime would usually bring home my older brothers with their wives, relieving the stress and boredom of being alone with my parents. I expected Christmas to be happier than other times, and usually it was.
Unfortunately I don't have any contact with my brothers now, but that isn't the point. What matters is that I'm generally happier now than I have been for most of my life. I have had some depression the past couple of months, but the big picture looks okay.
My daughters are good company and so is myself most of the time. It would be nice to have friends drop by for hors d'ouevres, but maybe that will happen tomorrow or the next day. It would be nice to sit and have a quiet coffee on the couch with
djjo, but I remember how happy he was about seeing his parents and sister for the first time in 18 months, so I can wait four days. I am content.It's time I went for a comfortable, hot shower.
