Cousins

Recently I had unanticipated encounters with several of my cousins.

( Notes and photos )

Such sweet sorrow

Brenna





Marian


Leaving Danny was particularly difficult today. Seeing him get emotional moved me. It still surprises me to matter that way to someone.

Last night we watched The Adventures of Priscilla, Queen of the Desert (1994). The girls had seen it once, but forgotten. I had forgotten the significance of Anthony/Mitzi's relationship with his son. Hugo Weaving's character suggests it's a difficult thing for his queer friends to understand. Unlike Cachorro (2004), which tore me apart, watching Priscilla with Danny and my daughters warmed me up.

Here's the hard part. It's not that I won't see Danny for long; it will be less than three weeks. It's the idea of parting ways for a big adventure without him. Part of me belongs with him. I was reminded of it while happily watching a sunset alone on the dock, when the only thing missing was he.

On the other hand, part of me savours solitude and the freedom to live my own life. I used to suffocate in relationships. Danny has offered a good complement to my independence.

It's terrible to feel lonely around someone you love, but much better to be happy in someone's company and miss him when you're apart.

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Checklist of things to do before Tuesday morning:

• Recharge camera batteries
  
• Excavate large tent (and repaired hall shelf)
  
• Checklist of camping equipment
  
• Get car serviced
  
• Refill both prescriptions
  
• Laundry
  
• Groceries
  
• Print out maps and directions
  
• Make log sheet for gas
  
• Trip to Canadian Tire (batteries for flashlights, propane canisters + ?)
  
• Contact Aunt Nancy (she invited us to stay in the cabin on their lake property)
  
• Cancel reservations at Kejimkujik
  
• Make campsite reservations for Quebec City (Parc national de la Jacques-Cartier)
  
• Water plants
  
• Wash dishes
  
• Call Jon and Sylvie
  
• Find or get spare key made for Bob
  
• Pick up rehearsal CD from Bob, and drop off key
  
• Organize CDs
  
• Return empty beer bottles
  
• Get directions from Gary
  
• Buy bottle of wine for Gary and John
  
• Ask Joanne to pick up mail
  
• Pack
  
• Call parents
  
• Email itinerary to my ex