Bothersome things

Reflected sunlight from Church of Our Lady Immaculate and the moon


I came out of therapy today feeling distraught. My mood has been okay lately, and I've made progress toward employment by taking a volunteer position. So why did I feel wrecked?

Apparently, because I had just spent 45 minutes talking about things that are bothering me. I say bothering, because they don't enter the front of my mind very often. They hang like disfavoured shirts at the back of my closet. They fly my mind down the street when I sit at my desk trying to write anything useful. These things could drown me.

As hard as we work at taking control of life, there's never a guarantee that one possibility or another won't unravel the whole project overnight.

Staying sane is like learning to swim. If you're inexperienced in the water, if you panic and start struggling, you're sunk. You have to have confidence in your own limbs, combined with healthy respect for the depths underneath.

The sun was setting as I left Dr. J's office. Wanting to photograph that light, I drove up the hill to the church at the top of the city.

I needed to float on the surface a few minutes and return to calm.

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Another image is posted in doorwindowwall.

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P.S. I could stand to spend the rest of the evening hugging somebody and watching a good movie, but as it looks like I'll have to wait till Friday, there's always LJ.