Where does a day go?

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The best thing with this drug Remeron is I'm sleeping well. The problem is I need to adjust my schedule. I used to go to bed at 2:30 and get up at 7:30 all the time. Now I go to bed at 2:30 and get up at 10:30. My habits improved somewhat over the summer, but now that I'm alone at home I've reverted to the previous routine.

Underlying it is the life-long fear that I'll never finish everything I want to do.

Today I accomplished much, far more than my previous normal energy would allow. Partway through the afternoon I started to worry, probably because the light outside had started to fade. I had to remind myself that I had already completed my goals for the day, the rest was gravy, I could stop pressuring myself and relax.

What I did:

• For breakfast I had an English muffin and a peach and blueberries with cream. Also my first cup of real coffee in weeks.


• Washed, folded and put away four loads of laundry.


• Phoned Lutherwood-CODA, a job counseling service, and set up an appointment for next week.


• Phoned Canadian Mental Health Association for an appointment with a job counselor. Left a message.


• Phoned Bob to tell him I have decided not to sing in the choir this fall. I wasn't looking forward to that conversation, but it went okay. I will continue to help as a volunteer.


• Couldn't find my recipe for Madeira, mushroom and leek soup, so I made a mushroom omelette for lunch.


• Phoned Mom for the soup recipe (she is borrowing one of my cookbooks).


• Did my handwritten journal pages for the day.


• Drove to Zehrs to pick up a few supplies for making preserves.


• I also brought home a pork tenderloin and decided to share it, so I spontaneously phoned Sylvie and invited her for dinner.


• Had a shower.


• Dinner for me and Sylvie (the menu reflects a strict new diet she was given by a naturopath):
  
  
  • Roast pork tenderloin with a coating of curry, brown sugar and dry mustard.
  • Peach chutney.
  • Green beans blanched, then sautéed with shallots.
  • Sliced tomato drizzled with pesto and olive oil.
  • Basmati rice.
  • Limeade.
  • Butterscotch oatmeal squares.


• Marian called collect and talked to both me and Sylvie. Apparently I can call the pay phone in her dorm. Whoever answers will go and get her. She had a good first day at school and made some friends.


• After Sylvie left I preserved several half-pint jars of mint sauce.


• Washed the dishes.


• Shot a few nude photos of self.


• Took a call from Daniel L. We had some catching up to do. It was our first conversation since last winter.


• Perused my LJ friends pages.

How did it get to be 2:30 again?