Antidepressant tedium

[vaneramos]

I'm ravenous for green: the Eramosa River this morning


This was another difficult week, but I can see things turning around. The problem wasn't my mood, but medication issues. In fact, last week's problem turns out to have been the same. Celexa was making me groggy, but at 10 mg I didn't notice any drowsiness, just zero motivation. Unsurprisingly, I got depressed. Increasing to 20 mg last Wednesday, I began to feel even more listless and realized it was a side effect.

Tuesday I called the psychiatrist and asked whether I could take it at night instead of the morning. She said yes, so I switched. So far it looks promising.

Ironically, I forgot to refill the other prescription on Wednesday, so evening came and I had Celexa but no mirtazapine. I went to bed at 3:15 am wide awake, tossed for 15 minutes, got up and played computer games until 4:30.

After only four hours' sleep, I set my expectations low early in the day, and consequently didn't get depressed about feeling lazy and unsociable. In fact I actually accomplished a task that's been neglected for weeks: buying a new bathroom door latch at the hardware and installing it.

Last night I took both drugs. Today was better.







Old Man Willow's crotch







Another black willow

Comments

[handlebear.livejournal.com]

I'm glad that you found some drugs that help you. I just wish you didn't have to go through the trial and error process like others I know. Have a great weekend!

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Cameron. I certainly hope things level out now.

I'm looking forward to the weekend. Tomorrow is the chorus's 10th anniversary concert. Danny should be here by the time I get home from dress rehearsal this evening, and more friends are coming to town tomorrow afternoon.

[missprune.livejournal.com]

Love the subtlety of that green, especially where least expected, on the willow bark.

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Yes, isn't that lichen wonderful? There are some interesting bluish-green undertones in the water in the first shot, too.

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

I still haven't formed a clear opinion about her, but if nothing else she is a peaceful and patient influence, quite the opposite of the last guy. I don't think she will be great for the cognitive work I want to do (she says she doesn't have any specific training in that area), but at least she values it and is supportive (e.g. she has recommended one book so far).

Danny said last night, "It's good to see you in good energy." And it's true. The past couple of days I fell better than I have since January (that was a great month; February and March sucked). It has only been a couple of days since things levelled out, so we'll see what happens next. Hopefully more of the same.

I don't know when my next visit to Toronto will be, but hopefully we can steam together over a cuppa.

[khema.livejournal.com]

you see things I never did while I lived there. I love your photographs.

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

I've spent a lot of time walking along the river. It's like getting to know a person. :-)