Post-holiday blues

[vaneramos]

I noticed it first in my daughters. Yesterday Brenna wanted to know what I had planned for the next few days. Not much, I said. I couldn't explain that I'm broke. There's also housework to do, besides I need down time after 10 days of travel and celebration. But my daughters are restless.

Later, Marian said she has been sleeping too much, eight hours a night, and it's making her feel crappy (Several weeks ago she complained over the phone about insomnia). I suggested her body needs this break, but that started an argument. I dropped it.

Depression hit me today, as I started worrying over a lost friendship. It has been a long time coming: He started withdrawing more than two years ago, but finally ended it last week without explanation. I'm uncertain of the reason; he never told me. I shouldn't take it so hard now. But that's where my undisciplined thoughts choose to dwell.

Really, it's only post-holiday blues.

Tonight I'll drop the girls off at the mall while I go to the gym, first time in several weeks. We could all use the outing. Tomorrow I'll go into work for two hours. Routine is a blessing.

Comments

[songdogmi.livejournal.com]

Is it as cloudy-gray there as it is here in Detroit? I'm sure it was in Windsor, but if it is back home then that can't be any help. Sorry to hear about the ending of the friendship. Even if it was foreseeable, it's hard to avoid hurting. The outing and activity should help.

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

We had one or two sparkling winter days last week, but otherwise it has been gloomy, and yes, it doesn't help. But activity does. Thanks for your thoughts.

[ubermunkey.livejournal.com]

thinking of you

love
munkey

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Likewise. :-)

Love, Van

[e-musings.livejournal.com]

I know going to the gym is usually a mood elevator, for me, anyway. Sometimes, that is what gets me there--knowing I will feel better after.

After holiday letdown is no fun! And grey skies (like we had here all day---if felt more like November than January) don't help!

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

You're right about grey skies, and the weather has mostly been dreary here. Sometimes I get a real burst of endorphins from working out at the gym, but I need to get back into the routine first.

[bitterlawngnome.livejournal.com]

Jeez. I don't know who it is ... should I? Phone me if you feel like talking.

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Yes, we have discussed it, but not for more than a year. I'll tell you about it sometime. Fortunately I have enough distractions right now.

[thewindrose.livejournal.com]

I had some of that post holiday blues myself. I spent part of this weekend in seclusion (up at the cottage) and now I am embracing routine. Sometimes it's the best thing.

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

The family cottage has been on my mind lately, too. Wanting a retreat, I guess. If I had the energy I could go, but going there in winter is a terrific amount of work. I think I'll find smaller ways of relaxing for now.