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[vaneramos]

Wow, I've missed three of the past four days making my regular 200-word post. I could do it this evening but don't want to just for the sake of saying I did.

I had a not-very-good reason Saturday, no reason yesterday or today. I must consider carefully, asking myself, "Am I depressed?" The answer is no. I'm not sick or tired of it, either.

I have recently wanted and started to refocus creative energy. The chapbook is evidence, and other endeavours stand in waiting. At times I feel I'm fitting LJ into stolen time. I've reached a point of change.

This journal is too important creatively, and the community socially, for me to abandon it.

But I've spent the past several hours catching up with people I feel close to. Right now I just want to eat, then work on something else before bed. I was intending to just let myself follow that feeling, but seeing I've nearly reached 200 words anyway, I might as well go with that instead. I rarely manage to be succinct about personal revelation, which is part of the purpose for the word quota.

I'll worry another day about what to do with all this.