Passage

[vaneramos]

It seems I've reached a season of transition.

After taking the volunteer position I was initially overwhelmed; those few working hours dominated the entire week. This seemed to confirm my fear that a job would hinder creative endeavours.

But since January I've settled into the groove. Not only that, I adopted my largest project in years: desktop publishing a chapbook with the goal, which I achieved, of raising enough money to buy a camera.

The job seems to have catalyzed this outcome. My free time has become more productive. At times my energy has been outright obsessive. I don't mind.

The problem is I've neglected some good habits. I haven't been washing dishes, cooking or eating properly. My office has become too disorderly for me to launch another project, and recently my morning pages have lapsed. I need to refocus the energy quickly.

Another positive development: since the cognitive therapy group ended, I've continued meeting informally with two people. We're forming a fertile friendship. Last night I told them the problem and gave myself homework: to clean the apartment by next Thursday.

I did the bathroom this morning, and plan to tackle the kitchen tonight. A little accountability is wonderful.


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