Two things

[vaneramos]

The Rainbow Chorus has a habit of pulling things together last minute, but this weekend's concerts were perhaps the best example (or worst, considering the emotional drain). I expected fifty per cent of our capability, but Friday night turned out seventy-five, and Saturday ninety. Nevertheless, after one more performance next Sunday at Guelph Unitarian Congregation, I'll be ready for a break until September.

Depression. It's about time to pay a visit to the shrink and discuss adjusting the meds. This spring has simply been a drag, but not in an obvious, paralyzing way. It has crept up: signs of self-neglect, and the realization I can't continue this way. The benefit of cognitive therapy seems limited, and I feel overwhelmed by the work involved. I have lost my grasp of skills already learned. On the good side, I've been gardening and drawing nearly every day. On the down side, I haven't cooked a proper meal for myself in two weeks. No interest.

Comments

[mhkrabat.livejournal.com]

I know perhaps a fraction of what you may know about it but Depression is such a wicked fickle mistress. Glad you're going to discuss the meds with the doc. Chemistries change or in my case were wholly incorrect for the application, as was the case earlier this spring. Better to attend to it, which you are. Good.

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I made the call today. I've had a more productive day, which also helps.

[envirobear.livejournal.com]

*bear hug* because I ride the roller-coaster as well....

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Many thanks and hugs.

[bill-kiowa.livejournal.com]

I feel for you Van, as I'm also in the dumps tonight. I'd mostly been feeling quite good about myself for the past couple of weeks and was completely blindsided by this particular wave of negative feelings. I tried to analyze the possible reasons, but really, when does this sort of thing ever make any real sense?

Hang in there and feel free to let me know if there is anything I can do to help.

Hugs...
BK

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Thank you, and I hope today has been better.

[eloquentwthrage.livejournal.com]

I feel for you, man.

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

[missprune.livejournal.com]

Oy. Sympathy from me to you. Depression's such a drag! May it soon lift.

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the good wishes. Today at least I have some sense of accomplishment, which usually helps.

[shadowshape.livejournal.com]

I know it might sound facile
but my friend voldelange says
'a drawing a day keeps depression away'
and I know myself that if I can force myself into something creative when the black hole swallows me, it helps
with you in spirit
love and blessed be
xxxx

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Thanks. It's odd; I was reflecting today that when I'm depressed I seem to shift somewhat from writing and photography to drawing. I wonder why? I've done a lot of drawing the past ten days, and that at least is something I feel good about.