Arise

[vaneramos]

Sun mounts the hill and looses its roar, gloating hungrily over quiet houses in the valley. You wake to hunger. The running stream is full of fish. Let down your net of sunbeams for a catch. The trees overflow with birds, sucking into wet pools of shadow underneath. We drown in their music.

Feels like I have my brain back today, somewhat. This always happens when I call the psychiatrist, as if the gesture of need finds help in myself. She hasn't had any cancellations yet this week, so no openings. If one comes, I'll still go.

The bad news on the home front is, the woman upstairs has snuck back with all her children. The really, really good news is that the central air conditioning is working properly for the first time in, oh, five years. The serviceman was working in the basement when I did my laundry yesterday. I can't express how grateful I am. I actually have to turn off this fan now; it's too cool.

Today while typing up minutes of a staff meeting, I discover someone suggested approaching me to sit on the board of Two Rivers. This is not a dream. No one has actually said anything yet, although someone asked whether I would sit on a committee overseeing summer camp staff. I wonder whether that's why Heather had me do the typing. I'm flattered, but really would like a paying job rather than more volunteer responsibility.

I come home and work on the first drawing for the Denver show. It's a cross between my waterspout series and the one I did last week, considerably darker. I'm taking more time than usual: leaving it, going back, savouring the process.

At dinnertime I escape for a while to the Eramosa River and soak in the fragrance of dame's rocket (Hesperis matronlis), spreading purple haze along the banks. This modest flower is herb-robert, Geranium robertianum.

Comments

[missprune.livejournal.com]

What a pretty little flower and the leaves are beautiful too. I must have missed your post about the Denver show. I've seen you mention it twice but I missed the first intro of it.

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

It is being organized by dencoartist, a group show including only LJ artists, a few of whom I know. This will be my first appearance in an art show of any kind. I won't be able to attend, but several of my drawings will participate. The dates are in August; I can't remember exactly when. I want to complete the drawings before my daughters finish school.

[missprune.livejournal.com]

That is really cool! By the way, I know what you mean about how the decision to get some help often seems to trigger a self-healing. Maybe that's why I usually have no symptoms by the time I get to the doctor!

[bill-kiowa.livejournal.com]

I don't know how additional volunteering would effect your increasingly busy summer schedule, but give the offer some consideration. It is something else for your resume and you may hook up with people that have solid job leads (or even job offers) for you.

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Even if I had time, I wouldn't be keen on it. I've tried sitting on committees, and it's a problem. One of my strategies for getting back to work is finding something well-defined in terms of time and energy required, so I can come home and leave it behind. I need that. Board and committee work defies such definition. Besides, I have limited tolerance for politics.

I wouldn't automatically say no to the opportunity, but these are my concerns.