Insane

[vaneramos]

The next two weeks are going to be just insane, leading up to the usual insane summer in which I go from bachelor to full-time single father. This year will be a little different in that it will just be me and Brenna for the month of July, which is okay. She probably needs the time with me right now more than Marian does. Here's what's coming up immediately.

Later today: Interview for a possible second volunteer position at Guelph queer lending library, then a visit and dinner with bjarvis.

Thursday: A morning interview with the cognitive therapy group facilitator, then I need to do at least one more drawing, preferably two.

Friday: Have to miss my art class. A few hours on the road to attend closing ceremonies at Marian's school, then returning to Toronto. I wouldn't mind hitting Bear Night at O'Grady's, as it might be my last opportunity before September, but we'll have to see how my energy holds up.

Saturday: Nothing specifically planned (phew), hopefully time with djjo.

Sunday: No plans for the day, hooking up with trapezebear et al for Sunday night dinner at the house.

Monday: Back to Guelph with trapezebear, hanging out with him for a couple days.

Tuesday: I'll do the usual bread run, but have otherwise cancelled volunteer work for the week.

Wednesday: Driving to Lindsay to pick Marian up for a few days alone with her, then on to the cottage.

Thursday: Missing group therapy this week. Rising before 4 a.m. to drive my annual route for the Breeding Bird Survey. Then hopefully I'll get a couple quiet hours on the dock.

Friday: Leaving the cottage by 8:30 to drive home so I can attend my last art class (we plan to continue the group informally, yay!).

Saturday: Lisa's wedding, then heading to Toronto with Marian.

Sunday: Pride parade.

Monday: Back to Lindsay to pick up Brenna, who will have just gotten her braces off that morning. Home to Guelph.

Tuesday: Back to the office.

Then maybe we'll have a few quiet days at home, but family style.

This afternoon I summoned up enough just-do-it to do housework that has needed doing since March. The place still looks a shambles. All the while I have a sinking feeling this spring has slipped by, and I've taken little opportunity to be still and soak it in. The only exception was the week in early May with ubermunkey, and I'm especially grateful for that visit.

Maybe normal people live this way constantly. I don't like being so busy. I have a hard enough time establishing a routine when it's just me alone at home. The only way to get through periods like this is tackle it like a robot. The energy always comes from somewhere, but at what cost? Sometime after Labour Day, I'll have one or two days to myself again, and then I will crash for a while.

Here are two photos left over from earlier this month, the day I actually went for a walk.

Comments

[bigfootcub.livejournal.com]

oh cool...hope to see you at pride..its been a wile HUGS

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Well it will be just me and my daughter taking in the parade, so no chance for partying, unfortunately.

[bigfootcub.livejournal.com]

Didn't have to go that far..a hug will do ;-)

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Of course!

[bigfootcub.livejournal.com]

WOOOF!

[missprune.livejournal.com]

I know what you mean... There is nothing I love more than waking up to a day when I have absolutely no commitment anywhere to anyone.

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Yes and ironically (or not) that's when I feel the most energized and productive.

[missprune.livejournal.com]

I don't think it's ironic. I realized long ago that I can only function well and creatively when I am free from stress and anxiety. As a result, I have designed a life that looks incredibly self-indulgent - but it's right for me. SOme people perform well under pressure, some don't, and it's good to know which way you are!

[token-otter.livejournal.com]

Well consdiering you probably the mosyt self-reflecxive person I know, I'm sure you will be able to handle the stress. Just gotta remember to keep your composure when you find yourself in a jam and also that you can always have people including myself that you can call if you need a rant :)

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

The challenge for me when I get busy is remembering to make time for nurturing myself. Certainly, talking to my friends is an important part of that.

[ubermunkey.livejournal.com]

damn that does sound busy, be careful or you'll have to go corporate whore like me and get a planner. lol ;-)

seriously tho, be well
love
munkey

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Haha, I actually have a planner. Carry it with me practically everywhere. But do I use it? ;-)

Love and cheers,
Van