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[vaneramos]

100words.com was down for a few hours, but it's back online. Here is my link:

100 Words - June 2003 - Silvan

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[poetbear.livejournal.com]

got it! nice texture. good continuity and
images. i was doing fine until your entry of
the 27th, then i got this picture of that poor
guy drawing on his chest with a marker, and his
mom finding him in the morning...merde! i just
kind of crashed into a nest of broken disconnected
threads. still, overall, very nice work. i rarely
do exercise like that, not that they probably
wouldn't help, i just rarely do them. keep doing
that for long enough, and you will have a good and
valuable reminder or where/how you were when you did
it--at the very least.
~paul

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Of course that image was intended to be disturbing. It really happened and I was upset about it at the time.

As I worked through the month, the chosen them (texture), began to overlie my thoughts about the important of community (social fabric). My LJ friend's suicide seemed essentially related to the other entries and my own feelings of isolation.

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[poetbear.livejournal.com]

i remembered myself-- was that Knoxville TN, or
another Knoxville I don't know about? do you
feel less isolated when your daughters are
there? i know you're more structured, then,
but you can be as lonely with people, as
without them sometimes.
~paul

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

q_knox lived in Knoxville, TN.

I seem to be more functional when my daughters are with me. It's easier to focus on cooking meals, washing dishes and planning interesting activities when I am responsible for someone besides myself.

But I feel more isolated. Having the kids with me strains my social connections and it would be inappropriate for me to treat my children as confidantes the way I do my adult friends.

I wrote all about it in this post last month:

http://www.livejournal.com/users/vwaffle/37098.html

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[poetbear.livejournal.com]

i don't remember that one Van. i was in hibernation
for a couple of days, must've been then. parents
all feel like that. they start to school, and before
you know it, they're leaving home. it's true that
they can't be treated as adults, but the older
they get, the less that will apply. personally,
i'm glad i had a son, i'm not sure how i would
have handled a daughter, or daughters. i'd
guess, though, i would have muddled through
somehow. they grow up, sometimes despite
our efforts. lol. as Daisydumont says,
'Cheers!'
paul

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Of course you don't remember it, we hadn't friended each other yet! ;-)

I always wanted daughters. :-)

Re: daughters/sons

[poetbear.livejournal.com]

ahhh! that would explain it! my mind is
not always with me when i want it to be.
it's got a mind of it's own, so to speak.
i grew up with one younger brother,
and i have an older half brother and
sister, but they're fifteen years my senior,
so i didn't really grow up around them.
i don't really remember wanting either one,
specifically, i was more concerned with a
healthy baby i guess.