Slowly

[vaneramos]

Gloomy weather has settled in. That time of year has arrived. It seems to be hitting hard for the first time in several years. This morning I feel little enthusiasm even for the river, and a task as simple as packing is difficult to undertake. However, sometime today I will depart to spend the week with Dad at Poplar Bluff. If there is any sunlight, I'll be in a good place to take advantage of it. Be well. I probably will not be in touch again until the weekend.

I read and reread these sentences obsessively. I always do that, second-guessing myself, but now the habit is more extreme. I don't know what I'm looking for.

Comments

[estherandmia.livejournal.com]

have lots of fun, relax and enjoy the time!

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Thanks, I will try! There's nice walking and the piano to play.

[bitterlawngnome.livejournal.com]

Yeah it's getting me too. -libido, -energy, erratic sleep and too much, food cravings. I hope this is not a portent for the winter!

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Everything I need to do I do not want to do. It sucks. October and November are usually the worst for me, but sometimes it hits hard in September, and it didn't, so I'm counting on that as a good sign.

[ghostsandrobots.livejournal.com]

The chill in the air bothers me in a way it hasn't in a couple years. Guess it's time to break out the long johns, but if I'm comfortable outside I'll be too hot inside. What an awkward time of year.

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

It's funny how spring sees me trying to wear shorts in this kind of weather, but now it really bites.