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[vaneramos]

I seemed to be making tremendous steps forward, then suddenly it became too many things at once. Someone said it actually takes three months (or was it six?) to change one habit. And it does no good working on more than one at once; that's a recipe for failure.

So I am trying to accept the one thing that has stuck—using the light box every morning since mid October—as encouragement, and let the rest of the things I wanted to do fall into line, to be addressed one at a time—one at a longer, more patient time. Baby steps, Van.

This week seems as good as any to pick one single new daily action. It should be a writing habit, because there are already too many unwritten things lying on the heap of regret. All this fertile compost, and no garden.

But what habit will it be? Often the best ones are spontaneous, whimsical, beginning with inspiration rather than intention. How can I rub some brain cells together to initiate a spark?

Since this morning I've been considering writing a poem a day in 2010. Or picking up with 100 Words again. Even better would be something new, unthought-of, but as of this moment it remains unthought.

Comments

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

That's a very good question. I hadn't decided whether I was finished making squares, but apparently I have unconsciously been preparing to move onto something else. Putting all the squares together will be another process, separate from the kind of daily writing action I'm looking for. But I'm confident it will happen. I'm pretty consistent about finishing knitting projects.

[dakoopst.livejournal.com]

I'm simply glad to see your presence here.

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

I don't know what to do with LJ. I don't have time to maintain the level of interaction I used to. Besides, I seem to have become more private about certain things. Some kind of daily action here might be possible, but I have reservations about that—there's a sense of performance that tends to interfere with what I need to do. But withdrawing from LJ is not an option, because I really love some people.

[dakoopst.livejournal.com]

Do what you need to do with LJ -- it is most importance to find a balance in your life in which your happiness is best-served.

For my part, whether or not you post to LJ, I will be here if you need me.

[inishglora.livejournal.com]

I feel like I could have written this entry.

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry! Let's hope we both find some clear direction.

[missprune.livejournal.com]

What's up with your novel in progress? Could 2010 be the year to finish that?

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

I wish it could. One of my ideas is to write 300 words a day on that novel. Or maybe another one. But I am still battling writer's block.

[stephe.livejournal.com]

I certainly wouldn't object to seeing more writing from you.

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Well, doing that here is one consideration!

[liadra.livejournal.com]

I saw you today at the grocery store, but was too shy to say hello. LOL. I hear you on the writing front and the need for direction/change in life. Seems to be the time for it. If only there were clear path indicators!