Get on my case

[vaneramos]

So far my goal for September and October—to research and make plans for further employment—has not been going well. Three weeks ago I broke the goal down to working for half an hour after work, twice a week, which seemed a modest enough commitment for starters, but so far I have only made the appointment three times.

Either I've been sick or too busy. There are all kinds of excuses for avoiding it. Can you tell I'm not thrilled about this goal?

What have I got to lose by concentrating on something this important for 30 minutes?

Next week I'll try for Monday, Wednesday and Thursday after work.

Somebody light a fire under me.

Comments

[apel.livejournal.com]

I'd suggest that instead of making a schedule for tackling a topic that you obviously find difficult, you could take a step back and figure out how and why it's difficult. Would it make sense to schedule Monday, Wednesday and Thursday next week for diving deeper into those feelings? It could end up being more productive than trying to steamroll yourself.

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

That's a good idea. I "know" why it's difficult, but making an effort at this time to acknowledge and try to address some of those feelings would be a worthwhile project for next week.

[changeling72.livejournal.com]

You need a rocket up your bum, as my mum would say...

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Haha, yes!

[jwg.livejournal.com]

Fwoosh!

Don't beat yourself up on this. You are tackling a tough challenge and you were pretty sick which is always demoralizing. You've done pretty well in taking on some other tough challenges in the past so revel in that a bit and that might give you more confidence in this exploration.

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Yes, my success at changing my financial outlook is why I'm still plugging.

[pippasporch.livejournal.com]

Ah Van, I believe I'm already more on your case than you'd probably like! =)

It's scary, looking into the future, but it's also empowering. Remember that high you got from working through your financial goal? You know a greater sense of direction in this goal will bring the same satisfaction.

Do it for the calmness it will bring afterwards.

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Thinking about this question more today brought me face to face with the fact that if I were doing what I really wanted, my life would be a lot different. That can be either exhilarating or terrifying. I don't know about calmness.