An anniversary of sorts

[vaneramos]

I didn't realize it yesterday when I wrote that story. I noticed it this morning as I wrote the date in my handwritten journal: Thursday, August 28, 2003. Twenty years ago today, alone in a muggy bedroom, I had a Born Again experience which changed the course of my life. It is just a coincidence that after seven years of hardly giving that anniversary a thought, I decided to record it now. Well, not a coincidence probably; I believe the subconscious mind has more control over us than most of us realize, more than I realize.

I'll continue the stories, but maybe not until next week. Tomorrow the girls are leaving and I'll catch the bus to Toronto to see djjo, bitterlawngnome and danthered. Just what I need after three weeks of scant adult company: a long weekend of good friends and furry hugs. I feel like Goldilocks and the Three Bears, except that all three of them are just right.

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[fabulist.livejournal.com]

It's funny, the anniversaries that you remember with real clarity. I edged into gay sexuality, drifted seamlessly into buddhism and taoism, and found my musical and literary talents over a twenty-year stretch, but I first realized my ability to fall in love with a man (no specific man at the time, alas) at exactly 10:45pm on February 5th, 1985. Odd.

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

I remembered that date because it was written down and later became an important reference point in my Christian identity.

As you know, infatuations started hitting me early, so I can't pin a date on them. But I know the day I decided to accept my homosexuality, no holds barred, without shame. I hadn't had a sexual experience with a man in 12 years. It was January 28, 1996. I promptly went and got laid, enjoying myself immensely.

[themonkeybear.livejournal.com]

realtime as WELL as virtual journal.

Your life / mind must be very well documented.

(nice to see someone elese who would put "cheese" in their intrests! :-)

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Your life / mind must be very well documented.

Haha! Writing is my life, but my life is not always well-documented. I devote a lot of time to trying to write creatively, and often forget to keep track of what's actually going on.

Most of what I put in LJ is intended for an audience: stories, poetry, photographs and personal news.

My handwritten journal consists mainly of self-therapy and practice writing. I prefer to do my venting and griping there, in relative privacy where it won't hurt anyone. That's also where I write pages and pages of crap in hope that some good creative ideas will emerge and take form.

(nice to see someone elese who would put "cheese" in their intrests! :-)

Ummm, I just realized it has double meaning. ;-)

I was originally talking about my favourite foods, which are fruit, cheese and shellfish.

Handsome icon, mister.

[themonkeybear.livejournal.com]

Thanks!

*and I was talking about dairy - not the goop found in and around non-gentile pee pees. ;-)

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Is it that darn knitting dragging you away from us?

I understand how hard it is to keep up. I get frustrated because I keep meeting new, interesting people and know I can't possibly read all the journal entries.

There were very few who I actually missed hearing from while I was away, but you were one of those.

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Trouble is you got yourself born on the other side of the world.


It is a trouble, and yet I feel enriched knowing a couple of handsome bears over there. In a small way it satisfied my longing to travel.

My growing friendship/relationship with Danny and the others is different from anything I have experienced before. It suits me in surprising ways. Yes, I am lucky, and glad I joined LJ. I am meeting a different quality of people here.