Finding flow
Aug. 5th, 2013 11:22 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
vaneramos
I've been avoiding anxiety about big life stuff, which is bad, because it always rises to the surface sooner or later in one form or another. Yesterday I ended up feeling shaky and miserable. I couldn't make apricot conserve as planned because it involved too much focus and patience.
This morning I spent a little while in Ommwriter and wrote over 1,000 words in stream of consciousness. It has been ages since I did anything like that. It was good. The psychic plumbing started to unclog. Chaos has a way of spewing out poetry.
But not if I'm sleep deprived, which has been another part of the problem lately. I need to renew my commitment to bedtime and daily journaling.
On a related issue: I have terrible trouble getting what I need (or want) from people. I've been working harder at asking but with mixed results. Sometimes by the time I realize I needed something it is too late. This is just how I am.
