Battle plan

[vaneramos]

Okay, I wasted most of the day. The problem is, I drift out of bed onto my computer and before I know it the clock says 10 or 11. Mostly I have been finishing my writing sessions around 3, then I don't feel motivated to start anything else.

Today was even worse: by the time I got home from my walk it was lunch time and I never arrived at my desk. Not writing makes me feel like I'm wasting my life. Writing keeps me focused and gives me a sense of accomplishment.

It's no cause for despair. I'm happier than ever with my life, but changes are still necessary, one step at a time. I have been building self-confidence. I have to ride the crest of the wave. I hope it lasts a while.

My ideal day:

0700: Shower and breakfast.

0800: Walk

0900: Writing at my desk.

1200: Lunch.

1230: Time to pound the pavement. Looking for a part-time job (or full-time, shudder). Researching story ideas. Sending query letters to publications. Even looking for a venue to display some of my drawings. Anything with the potential to generate income.

1700: If I have accomplished anything, I can afford to relax. I can visit LJ, respond to friendly email and still have time for a social life later in the evening.

On gym days, the workout will replace my walk. I'll get home by 10:30 and write for three hours.

Even if I don't have anything else to do, I will take Sundays off from writing and job hunting.

I have to get serious about this.

Comments

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

LJ has done me so much good, but I need some temperance.

[jaique.livejournal.com]

Sounds like a plan to me. Of course I've tried to institute such a thing in my life for months now, and it's happening in a tomorrow that hasn't shown up yet. Keep trying. Good luck.

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

At least I'm doing part of it, most days. As you know, I've been trying to establish some kind of a routine for several years. The effort has made a difference, gradually. The daily walks I started a couple years back when we were talking on the phone helped me avoid SAD symptoms the past two winters. I just have to hope things will keep getting better, and the change will happen soon enough to make my life sustainable. Meanwhile I have to fume and kick my own ass once in a while.