Letters to the years
Jan. 3rd, 2004 11:08 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
vaneramosCross-posted to a 100words email group:
Dear 2003, I discovered important things about myself during you. In recovering from surgery I noticed my unusual resilience. I enjoyed my friends more than ever before. I found LiveJournal. I found 100words. I reawakened my love of photography. I began identifying as polyamorous. I met Danny and fell in love for the first time in years. For the first time ever, I did it cautiously. In November I wrote my first complete draft of a novel. Despite all these positive things, I ended you feeling insecure as ever. I didn't find work. I think I have a social phobia.
Dear 2004, after one of the best years of my life, why do I fear you so much? It would be nice to think all I have to do is get a steady income and everything will be fine. The truth is I have always been afraid, and was far more miserable in the years I was working. I'm beginning to realize that insecurity will never go away. I have to learn to live and be happy in spite of it. December 31, could you send me a little message to reassure me I will make some progress this year?
Dear 2003, I discovered important things about myself during you. In recovering from surgery I noticed my unusual resilience. I enjoyed my friends more than ever before. I found LiveJournal. I found 100words. I reawakened my love of photography. I began identifying as polyamorous. I met Danny and fell in love for the first time in years. For the first time ever, I did it cautiously. In November I wrote my first complete draft of a novel. Despite all these positive things, I ended you feeling insecure as ever. I didn't find work. I think I have a social phobia.
Dear 2004, after one of the best years of my life, why do I fear you so much? It would be nice to think all I have to do is get a steady income and everything will be fine. The truth is I have always been afraid, and was far more miserable in the years I was working. I'm beginning to realize that insecurity will never go away. I have to learn to live and be happy in spite of it. December 31, could you send me a little message to reassure me I will make some progress this year?
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Date: 2004-01-03 08:27 am (UTC)Yep it has been a good and frightening year, but that is in retrospect. If you recall, there were moments in 2003 that scared the living stuff right out of you. Moments when you didn't think you'd make it through. Moments when it all felt bigger than life and twice as ugly. As the year 2003, my message for you would be to remember 2 things, **self love and to live in the moment**. If you do this it won't change the challenges of 2004 or 2005 or etc, it will however change your experience. Being in the moment will enable you to cope, and self love will remind you that you are a beautiful, wonderful man with a gentle spirit, who deserves to be happy and to live a full loving life.
affectionately yours,
December 31.
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Date: 2004-01-03 09:41 am (UTC)Having some thoughtful (not to mention woofy) friends on LJ certainly gives me courage.
Nuzzles,
Van