The trip home
Nov. 30th, 2004 03:43 pm
From the Greyhound, riding home. 
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This morning when Danny leaned over to kiss me goodbye, I could hardly move. I have had occasional back pain before, but rarely, perhaps never this bad. It seems that after almost 17 months of sharing his bed, my body has decided to dissent. I don't understand. I sleep on a futon at home, too, in fact it's less comfortable than Danny's. What tension has risen like a knot from deep inside the centre of my contentment? I spent an hour trying to find a comfortable position after he had left, then drifted off for a few more minutes.
Perhaps I've spent too much time at my keyboard lately. I'm out of shape. This is fresh incentive to adjust my sleep schedule so I can get out of bed early enough to go to the gym with 'Bruce.' It doesn't help that Danny and I spent a few hours this weekend strolling around Toronto. Walking on pavement makes my hips ache. But that, too, would change if I got back in shape.
I was happy to come home today. I have things to do. I thought the bus terminal would be relatively quiet at noon, no rush hour mobs, but I was wrong. I had to stand in line at the food court to grab some brunch. A Fillet-O-Fish from McDonalds. I can't understand what I like about them. The very idea rots my innards, but despite my distaste for fast food, I have a few buds leftover from childhood that call out for bland fish patty with tartar sauce once in a while. I picked up a blueberry croissant and large coffee for dessert, then passed through the tunnel under University Avenue and boarded the bus.
Now I remember: last night as I drifted off to sleep I had an inspiration to rewrite Tendril Through Cyberspace ( don't click here if you're a fiction writer and a kleptomaniac ). Thanks,
At least the bus wasn't crowded. I intended to read and write, but made the unusual choice of sitting on the left hand side of the bus so I could take pictures of the Niagara Escarpment when we passed. I usually sit on the outside where I can spy on truck drivers. The escarpment looked bland and nondescript from the Greyhound, but I shot a strange series of photos through the opposite side of the bus after all. Now I have this blurry record of a trip I've made so many times I couldn't guess. Now that the car is gone, I settle back into this bus schedule.
I wanted to diarize my feelings along the route. I was bright and optimistic when I left Bill and Danny's, and the sun was shining in a clear sky. Halfway home, a sheet of clouds gulped down the sun, and we pulled into a sombre Guelph. I stopped at the Nutty Chocolatier. I had to.
The York Road bus was quiet. The passengers here are different from Toronto. At least on this line, most of them are light-skinned. A lot of bleary-eyed young men heading to their shifts in small factories on the southeast corner of town.
One in a white fleece jacket had mesmerizing grey eyes and a day's worth of sandy scruff. I would have paid to photograph him if I had the money, but the fantasy stayed in my head.
( Another view from the bus )