Oh God

[vaneramos]

I was taking a pee break when it hit me: in order to write Pilgrim's Cross I ought to read the Bible again. Especially since Jesus is a conceptual character in the novel. And not only the Bible, but also as much ex-gay literature as I can lay hands on. I realized this reading would be necessary when I wrote the first draft two years ago, but subsequently managed to delete the idea from memory.

The funniest part is, I finally sent all my ex-gay books to the landfill last month when I cleaned the basement, after keeping them more than a decade for this very purpose (I would not even think of taking them to a secondhand store).

Dear subconscious, I know you want the best for me, but next time consult me before you pull a move like that.

Ah well, I can relearn everything I need to know online, where there is no shortage of ex-gay propaganda.

Comments

[clairenolen.livejournal.com]

that's funny.....especially with your headline/subject line.....;-)

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Yes, all I can do is laugh. I imagine God would find it funny, too.

Ironically, I must try to believe in God again for a while in order to write this novel. It has nothing to do with atheism. And Jesus plays a benevolent role in the mind of my protagonist.

Maybe I'll go to church.

[winterknight.livejournal.com]

Ooops?!

You know, I wonder if it's not best anyway that you not use 'your' resource materials. I don't know. Somethings are odd that way. Maybe you remember now because the books are gone?

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

That may be the truth.

Strangely enough, I think this idea has galvanized the work. I had to go to the Green Room to meet some friends this evening, so I headed down an hour early to write, and ideas started filling the page. I found a door into the fictional world, and it's exciting.

[winterknight.livejournal.com]

This is wonderful news! :)

[rfmcdpei.livejournal.com]

Meep. Take care of yourself as you do so.

[artricia.livejournal.com]

Second the motion.

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Don't worry, I survived hell the first time. ;-)

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

The harm was done long ago; I survived and recovered. The worst thing that's likely to happen is that I will become angry, which may or may not be conducive to the writing.